Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Life is good!!

Fight Like A Trojan!!

I am really behind in my posts, so I will try to catch up.
If you aren't a USC fan you should be!! Rick is a HUGE USC fan and a couple of weeks ago he got a visit from John Martinez a player at USC who came home to Utah for the weekend. We got a knock at the door and there in the doorway stood a really BIG guy with REALLY BIG hair. He came in and hugged Rick as if he had known him all his life. They talked for a while and then John took out a jersey that he had brought. There were autographs from coach Kiffin as well as many of the starting line-up. Rick was overcome with emotion to think that these guys would take the time to do this for him. John told us that he was planning on bringing a t-shirt and needed to get permission from the compliance office. When he asked they said they would do one better and so the jersey. When coach heard he was the first to sign it. What a classy group of men. Thank you John for your BIG heart that is BIGGER than your hair. FIGHT ON!!

Thursday, October 6, 2011


I think today I learned more about life and myself than I have in a while. Rick and I were talking about appreciating the seemly small things and tasks in life and Rick said, "cancer has taught me about my world". I think when you are in the position to need to have assistance  for many tasks throughout the day. it must make you think about how hard it is to have Independence lost. But as Rick has lost some Independence I have learned the true meaning of service. I have learned to give of my self and know that the service I receive back will not be in a physical way but yet in an emotional,spiritual way.The service that Rick renders to me at this time is that of love,kindness,appreciation . No he can't vacuum the floor or make me dinner but he can ooh and aah over the dinner I prepare for him, he can put his arm around me and just hold me. I never knew the true meaning of service until now.  I was feeling so home sick and missing the stores,wanting to be there and take care of the stores and our  friends who work for us. I was feeling so over whelmed and Rick held me and said " you need to put away the happy face and know you  will have hard times" I told him that I don't want people to see me as weak." He said that is when you become strong" Thank you Rick for allowing me to love and serve you. Thank you for serving me!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

"I need a little fixin"

Yesterday Rick was struggling to adjust the brace that holds his right arm, and finally after a great try he looked at me and said " I need a little fixin'".We both laughed so hard! Don't we all! I learn so many lessons from Rick and our journey everyday. I learn that I am stronger than I thought, more in love than I knew,and boy do I need some fixin'!
I asked Rick the other day if he ever said "why me" and he said " no, I would never change any of this". I am amazed at him and his attitude everyday. He is truly a man that his children and grandchildren can deem a hero!! I believe that I am living with and being loved by a man that needs very little fixin'. His faith is so strong and his testimony of Christ and the atonement is so moving. He has such a humble sweet spirit about him. I can be stressed out of my mind and he, in his gentle way, will hold my hand or give me a sweet kiss and my world stops spinning and all is well.
I may be considered a caregiver, at this time, to my sweet Rick, but truth be told he takes better care of me than I could ever of him. I am so blessed to be with rick and am grateful he loves me in spite of the fact that I need a little fixin'.